If you've followed along since I started blogging, you've seen me go on a lot of adventures and change for the better. You've been with me as I've planned my wedding, got married and shared my experience to help you plan yours, you've been there through countless DIY projects (that will be never-ending!), you were there through my pregnancy, and now you're here as I embark on the journey of motherhood. When I started blogging I was a completely different person than I am now, and thank God for the changes I have gone through and for the journey (although, sometimes a crazy journey) that I have been on.
I've been reflecting a lot on life, looking at Bentley's baby photos, and just simply thinking about what I really want to get out of life. What do I want to be known for, who do I want to be, and how can I take my experience and my life and inspire those who read my blog and see my posts on social media.
Motherhood is a journey like no other that I've been on. I am learning and growing each day right alongside Bentley. When you become a Mom, no one really prepares you for what you're about to go through. The sleepless nights, the sickening exhaustion, the gut-wrenching feeling you feel when you leave for work each day, the guilt for leaving your baby but still wanting to have a career, and feeling the guilt all over again. I mean, the list goes on and on. No one prepares you for the love that you will feel, the frustration, oh gosh, the frustration that you'll feel, but when you look at your little love at the end of the day, it seems that all of the hard things we go through as Moms don't really matter. We'd sacrifice anything for our children because there is no love like it.
It's in the moments of motherhood that we learn who we really are and what our new priorities become. We learn what's really important in life and that's where I'm at today. I'm learning what those things are and it's come to a point where I'm re-thinking everything I've worked for, because my priorities have changed, and let me say this: it's okay. It's okay for your priorities to change and to change who you are and who you will become. Let me say that again. It's okay for your priorities to change. If we went through our whole lives never changing or growing, that would be a little weird, right?
Think about those things that really matter in life and run with them. Could it mean making sure you're home every night to tuck your little one in bed, or have dinner as a family, walks in the park, being truly present, and I think the scariest for me--a career change. It's not a secret that your career is a true foundation for our happiness. If you're not happy in those 40+ hours, the rest of your life seems so much harder.
As Bentley is getting older, I'm realizing how many huge moments, (and little moments, too) I'm missing out on because of it, and then I think about how much harder it would be for us to have another little one living the same life. I don't want to miss out on these things anymore, and I really shouldn't have to. Though these changes can't be immediate, and I'm working on a more permanent solution, I've learned how to say my new favorite word: "no". Saying no to the extra things that would hinder my time with Bentley has been huge. I want Bentley to know me as the Mama who works hard and goes after her dreams but is also there for him for his big (and little moments), too.
Whatever your new priorities may be, let's go after them and jump off the deep end together. May this year be filled with more laughter, more love, and more time spend with those that truly matter.
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